let's do a quick recap of the weekend before i do a review. (see, i've been working too much. it shows in my sentence structure and the vocab i use.)

friday...the day i finally took a day off. i rested the ENTIRE day. then went to meet stef and shir for a girls' night out at balaclava. my first time there, and man...was i the "queen of the night"! in retrospect, there were some things i should have been more reserved about. nevertheless, it was a really fun night we had, though i ended it slightly early at around 1am. i think if i stayed any longer, worse things might have came rolling along. and i could have been completely trashed. so that's lucky...VERY LUCKY!

saturday was NDP preview. the fireworks are beautiful!!! ahh~~ i'll post some shots i got once i find my card reader or my lappie returns, whichever is sooner. i wonder if i can get the tickets to the fireworks festival...who can i ask?? hmm...

sunday was MS as usual. after which, i made my way down to botanic gardens for concert in the park. dear steffie was kind enough to accompany me, though she's mostly there to kaypoh lah. still, i think we had a good time with the nice weather and good music (and muddy grounds), albeit a short one. in any case, i got ulterior motive one lah. shhh....=X

ok...back at work now. i'm still rather busy, but i can't get the lazy bum in me to start the engine. i don't know why i have to do papers which i don't understand. damn BIG ARROW la. i'm shot through and through...and i'm getting rather lethargic about having to explain things IN BLACK AND WHITE which i can't explain. -scratch head- how sia...i'm new!! why can't they just give me things that has a proper template already? then i just need to copy and paste and change some stuff.

maybe coz everyone is just as blur as me. hahaha...so i look like i know, when the reason is that everybody else doesn't. wah...

and i think i might change my phone number. i keep getting some weird phone calls and getting harressed by various people. it's also good lah. cut off 1 source of contact from people i wanna cut off from my life.

i may lah. let's just see how it goes.



-struck-

呵呵!

只能说, 这就叫做 "日有所思, 夜有所梦"!

女生吗...还是得有点矜持.

it's been so long. i think i forgot how it works. haha...

strike a pose!

just got this photo from jarrell's dad. haha...

not bad ah? you3 qi2 shi1 bi4 you3 qi2 sheng1! haha

busy nana finally updates!

you know, when i dun blog for a long time, it means i've been reeeeally busy.

as you can see, i've been reeeeeally busy.

and work is just one of the main things that has taken my time.

and you know, when i dun blog for a long time, it means i have to bulletize my latest updates.

wanted to post photos but dunno where my dad's memory card reader went. my lappie is still under repair. this time kena one time BIG BIG! haiz...shall post the photos another time, all at one shot.

here goes the updates:

• work has been good, but very hectic. i'm running a project, my first major project and it's not gonna end until thurs! waiting for thursday to come. well, at least the people i've been working with are nice to me. i think we start sending crappy emails to each other already..."dear fellow comrades in crisis,..." hahaha. especially this CPT, he's really nice la, though he's doing a lot of work, he still keep thanking me and i'm thanking him, and back and forth. need to say this funny thing that happened. i was giving him the heads up over the phone about not getting something from someone else, and he gave me 2 flasetto screams over the phone like he is freaking out. it goes like this:

the cpt XX: hi! XX here!

me: eh, hi! eh...tell u a very bad news. YY just emailed me and wrote that his boss haven't cleared the materials, for my info!

the cpt XX (in falsetto): AH~~~!!! AH~~~!!

me: hahahaha....why are u screaming in such a high pitch!?! oh my god! hahaha

the cpt XX: (again)AH~~~!! because this is very bad!!!

hahaha...tang tang yi ge nan zi han, and a CPT no less, how can scream like that? so funny, so cute. hahaha...i laughed my head off! but he's really nice la, coz i'm so new. it's like i'm a huang mao ya tou. so lucky for me, i have been getting a lot of help from my nice co-workers.

• next up...more good news next 10th! woohoo~~~
• i'm going A*mei concert in Nov!!! it's on deepavali la...haha. poor xuan can't go coz she's on course. me going with my youngest sis (coz i pay wat...belated birthday present ah!), evelyn and alex. we are gonna have fun and scream all her songs out!!!
• yayayayayayayaaaaay!!! gonna go out celebrating with steffie and shir this friday night! we shall celebrate our new lives and new jobs and PARTY~~~!!! finally man...haven't let my hair down for a while. me shall take friday off to get myself rested for friday night! wahahahahaaa...
• ok, let me dedicate one point for JARRELL! he got 2nd for the sheng shiong show kids singing competition!!! WOWWIE! he did really well, or i should say, he's been doing better and better live. i think all these exposure really helped in his confidence and presence. he is really different and unique and has a special ability/talent. but no stress or pressure lah. i always believe you must like what you do and i think he does. now that it's over, it's back to the drawing board andwork further on his singing techniques. jia you orh~
• Elite Beats Agent...I HAVE COMPLETED ALL 4-STARS!!! wahahaha~~~ jia you ba, xuan. wo shi shen!!! wahahaha~~~!!! qie you mario kart! me shall practice everyday to perfect my skill and beat u! hahahaha...
• met jiaxin yesterday night. jason organised this big dinner meeting! met many ppl...had swensons. it was gd seeing her again. we took pics n made a mess out of swensons. jason really did a good job organising this gathering. well done, darling! my carebear always make me feerl so lruuuuurved!

that's abourrit...for now.

why like dat?

sorry for not updating sooner. work has been hectic and crazy. ahh~~~

and on top of this multitude, i still have to deal with this...issue.

i just came to know about this matter being an "issue", and it's been bugging me since.

it's making me rather uncomfortable and somewhat upset because this "issue" bugs me in 2 dimensions.

one, is that i can't believe it even came up because i never thought of it this way. in retrospect, i can understand why. still, i don't like to be malign. clear conscience. once again, i won't explain myself unless i have to.

two, i think there is a time and place for everything. THAT clearly was the wrong time and wrong place.

anyway, the deed is done. the consequences...we won't know what it is until it happens. i can just say, it won't be pretty.

and sometimes i wonder, why i even bother? it's not like i need to do it. i really don't.

何苦呢???

OK, on the up-side of things, it's my MUM'S birthday tomorrow!!!

heehee...me giving her ang bao, coz she's going japan/shanghai with my younger sis. and she specifically asked for money. hahaha... i got her a nice card too. heehee...to match the BIG ang bao (ok, "big" by my standards ok?)

talking about money, i think i spent a lot this month. ho ho ho...it's a happy thing. but my handphone bill just came in. alamak! =X now must save money. or else the wallet won't make it to my hands.

and i desperately need to get it.

deletion...almost complete.

What's NEW?

i can't say this enough...



KARMA.



and i'm still a very big believer of karma, thank you very much. for the uninitiated, once again, it means whatever you do, good or bad, it will come back to you. so if you do something good, good things will happen to you. if you do something bad/mean/stupid, the bad/mean/stupid thing will come back to (haunt) you.

and this isn't retribution or revenge. you don't even have to look for it or ask for it. it will just come back to you. the only way to counter it is:

1. do good deeds.
2. don't do bad/mean/stupid things.

and by the way, they are not mutually exclusive. you have to work both concurrently.

i've seen karma work first-hand, second-hand, and in many retrospective ways.

kaaaaaarmaaaaa...

disbelieve at your own risk.

on a lighter note (or not), i heard a*mei's new single on radio a couple of days back. it's good! very similar in style to her previous album, which i quite liked. and the thing was, the very moment i heard it, i thought the melody was very reflective of a certain male singer-composer-musician-(and now actor-director), who has in recent years (and albums) incorporated a lot of slow rock elements.

as usual, i was right.


A*Mei 新专辑[STAR]首波主打---如果你也听说

作词:李焯雄 作曲:周杰伦


突然发现站了好久 不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我 再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可(我想我宁可都沉默)
委屈却没有人诉说(解释反而显得做作)
夜把心洋葱般剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候 想你更多

如果你也听说 有没有想过我
像普通旧朋友 还是你 依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和 舍不得 又无可奈何

如果你也听说 会不会相信我
对流言会附和 还是你 知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 等我的人就你一个
想到你想起我 胸口依然温热

如果你想起我 你会想到什么


nice.

Retail therapy really works!

ha...ha...ha...

i went shopping yesterday already!!!

wanted to post pics of stuff i bought, but i got lazy. plus, i can't bring memory-carrying devices nor cameras to work.

but to cut the long story short, i bought:

• 2 Braun Epilators (1 for my sis's very belated xmas present, and got tempted to buy 1 for myself)
• 2 pairs of heeeeeels from Gripz (which are B-E-A-U-tiful! ok...i shall put up photos of these!)
• 3 tops and a belt from Mango (for work)
• 2 tops and crappy/funny magnets from Topshop
• Elite Beat Agents (the NDS game that Shiyu is addicted to and that Shirley completed)

and then, i met shir for din din at sakae. we went esplanade to meet steffie and off we headed for...

DIM SUM DOLLIES!!!

oooh! it was hilarious! i enjoyed every bit of it. was tearing 15 mins into the show coz we were in stitches! hossan leong was also great! oh man! i could watch it all over again man!

of course, it wouldn't be the same if not for stef and shir. it was great to finally have all 3 of us together again. after the show, we had some wine and drinks and talked talked talked. so many things to talk about, and it's such a nice end to the day/night. oh i miss them already! nvm dears, we'll soon be able to meet more often on weekends! it's still amazing how we keep in touch and still stay so close despite us going different places, doing different things and heading in different directions.

ok...so here's the big picture.

Total damage: About $700.

A smile on nana's face: Priceless.

the depressive mood looms on

i'm still not over being depressive. (note: not "depressing")

because it's been blooooooody irritating.

and because i still haven't got any shopping done. zero...zilch...nothing...

i haven't liao enough lui, despite the movie and dinner last night. btw, transformers ain't too bad. but it made me hallucinate about seeing regular cars on the roads of singapore suddenly transform. and when i snapped back into reality...i got into a more depressive mood.

damn.

and in my feeble attempt to get past my depressive mood, i have asked my sis to buy the NDS game "elite beat agents" for me. $50+. i don't care...i buy!

tomorrow, shall be much better.

i'm taking a day off, that's why!

i shall plan my day for some R & R, get MUCH (note: not "some") shopping done, and then go catch dim sum dollies with the dearies, and then chill out.

argh! i'm still in a very bad bad bad mooooooooooood and i hate it!

blooooooody hell.

depressive monday

today was depressing.

coz i felt miserable at not having enough shoes to choose from.

and not enough clothes.

haiz...

then work was especially stressful today. tried finding for ONE thing amongst the mess in my cubicle. it was horrid. then went around the channels to check where it was. after numerous rounds, i found out it was where i thought it was in the first place. bloody hell...

work wasn't too smooth today. i was literally pulling my hair out!! (i have this bad habit of playing with my hair, especially when i'm bored or stressed)

k nvm...den i had this meeting at 5.30pm...dat's when i end work officially. bloooooooody hell.

the meeting started at ard 6.30pm...and ended at 6.45pm. *beeping* hell...

screwed up my shopping plans!!! i wanted to buy a few pairs of shoes, some tops, contact lenses and new glasses!!!

ended up going freaking causeway point for dinner and "attempted shopping".

NOTHING THERE LAH!!!

*beep*! all i got was a pair of ear phones so i can play my DS without disturbing the public, or the public disturbing me.

*BEEP*!

I NEED TO GO SHOPPING LAH!!!!

maybe i shall take thurs off so i can go for a pamper session - mani, pedi and super duper shopping...and then, i'll be fresh and cheery to meet the dearies for dim sum dollies!

just realised, the last time i had a day of rest was 22 june. it's nearly 3 weeks already that i've NOT had a day off. wahhh....

I NEED TO GO SHOPPING LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nana is a busy bee!

ya...i know. i should at least wait a couple of days for the good news to settle down before i do up another post.

but i sense that i'll be pretty busy over the weekend, and since my lappie is down with a virus, i doubt i'll be able to update until monday (if i'm not hung up with work).

so it's my 1 and only chance till then.

let's see...short-term plans:

1. going out tonight either to shop or hang out! (i wanna buy a few pairs of shoes and some new tops...getting sick of my wardrobe. and i need a makeover on my wardrobe.)
2. tomorrow morning, have something on on an island east of singapore....tekong.
3. tomorrow afternoon, have to go down south to marina bay for NDP rehearsal! woosh!!! fireworks!!! (it's about the ONLY thing that makes me excited...oh, and the flypast lah!)
4. tomorrow night, MAHJONG SESSION! tentatively to be held at my place, if the aircon is fixed. wahaha...i'm gonna be so dead tired, but i don't care!
5. sunday, the usual comings-and-goings at MS.
6. sunday night, gonna go catch my little star-in-the-making jarrell for his competition. *cross fingers and hope for the best*

i reckon that's more or less how my weekend will be burnt.

longer term plans:

1. TRANSFORMERS outing on tuesday! -finally-
2. PAY DAY on tuesday...oh my god, i've never been more excited about pay day. ok, maybe in december i might get excited too!
3. DIM SUM DOLLIES with stef and shir (hopefully) on thursday night! shall laugh ourselves silly!
4. Hoping to get my new wallet soon. Shall be my first BIG present to myself to celebrate my freedom and renewed confidence in myself!
5. KTV-MAHJONG session with the old-timers in the works.

Pending:

• Still waiting for fantastic four, and soon, harry potter! Come get me!
• Start planning for the bangkok trip.
• Start planning for the Hong Kong trip and find out how to get Spice Girls concert tix.
• Mummy's birthday present.
• Emelia's birthday present...what you want? tsk!

yibedee yibedee...that's all folks!

Announcement...or...?

i have been quite torn over whether i should say or not.

and how much i should say, if i do decide to say it.

do you, my dear readers, need to know?




well...




let's just say, i'm now free from the shackles. i've regained my sight...no more blinded by the lying, cheating bastard.

for good.

don't need to ask why.

i think i have no explanations to do, because i'm not the wimp, and neither the coward. at least i have nothing to hide and i haven't done anything wrong.

in fact, it's the MOST CORRECT and BEST thing i have done for myself.

celebrate for me! be happy for me! for i am well, and i am not stupid. i'm an intelligent, sophisticated, high-achieving, young lady who has the world at her feet! and i'm not fugly.

nobody can screw up my life now!

and nobody can stop me now!





err...dates, mahjong, movies...anyone? i'm free~~~

One. Two. Three.

I have a couple of issues to address.

One.

I have met my fair share of bitchy people and bitches (Note: 2 totally different species.) AND, I think I have a rather high tolerance level of these kinda specimens. Agree?

Agreed.

In any case, I think I've probably witness the epitome of such people on Sat night, at the NDP rehearsal. Work. And this time, it was opened to some public for viewing (participant's families/friends).

(Side note: No, I can't get tix to NDP, so don't even ask, k?)

ANYWAY...I met some really incredulous people. Shan't go into details, but the experience wasn't too pleasant. Think: Ugly Singaporeans (and I'm not being superficial here).

You know, it's ok to have principles and be firm about your rights, but when someone asks you something nicely, you could jolly well repay them with a firm and pleasant explanation. There is absolutely no need to snap or be childish or rude about it.

God! As if i haven't seen enough childish people!

I think you lose your license to be childish once you turn 13 years old. Apparently, some people keep on renewing this license past its expiry, much to the distaste of others. BLEAH!

Two.

I'm getting slightly disturbed (and sick of) delusional people; people who think they are what they are not.

This has got to do with someone I know at work, plus some others here and there. I think people have to know that they can't have the "best of both worlds". Aiyah, but karma will catch up lah, so I'll just leave him and his "problems" alone.

Then, there are the other kind of delusional people; those who think there is something when there's nothing. Aiyoh, I feel so bad for them. I think we all fall prey to "stupidity" at one time or another. You see it happen, but you know there's nothing you can do until they wake up and find their wisdom and common sense again.

It doesn't help that you also wanna slap them to wake them up, but you know that will get you into trouble with the law. Maybe people just have to learn from their mistakes and bad experiences. (Cross fingers)

Three.

Enough of the negativities. Now, for some other things I wanted to address:

• Planned to watch Transformers, Fantastic Four, Pirates of the Carribean a couple of months back when the trailers started coming out. But...so far...zilch, zero, nada...And I missed Pirates already. This sucks.
• Planning to go BKK soon, sometime in Oct maybe. No, I'm not "escaping" from my birthday again. (Not yet, anyway.)
• Spice Girls are gonna have a reunion tour this year end. Last one apparently. I admit, I am a big fan. Looks like I shall dust out my CDs and lyrics, pack a bag to HK for the concert. (They aren't coming to Singapore. Boohoo...)
• Gonna buy myself a nice, nice, NICE present this July. I've been working too damn hard, and so, I deserve it. And...because i CAN!
• Thought briefly of getting posted overseas for a couple of years. It'll be a good experience I reckon. Europe or US would be nice. Then I can travel around the region too. Thinking only. I've been watching a lot of Discovery Travel and Living. Suddently, I feel ready for the world!

Keeping my options OPEN...as I will for all things in life.

Open...sesame!