够深刻了吗 来躺下吧
让我轻抚你安慰
伤害我后的疲累
够尖锐了吗 看我的疤
用温柔包覆勇敢
给喘息的你笑脸
生命从来不觉得自己对谁该负责任
太多虚伪情节的表面模糊陌生的眼
请让我在你身边
一起穿越 这条街
请让我在你身边
一起纪念
够痛快了吗 我知道啊
躲在你利刃之内
骄傲的自卑作祟
够鲜艳了吗 血染的花
被你刺满的双手
此刻擦乾你眼泪
生命从来不觉得自己对谁该负责任
我们看了编造的谎言就如此轻易 将彼此划成碎片
太多虚伪情节的表面模糊陌生的眼
请让我在你身边 一起穿越这条街
请让我在你身边 一起纪念这一天
总有一天我们都死去
丢掉名字的回忆再没有意义
总有一天我们都忘记
曾为了一个越演越烂的故事伤心
总有一天我们都叹息
笑着缅怀有过的愚蠢的美丽
就让现在过去
让我握你的手让你握我的手
彻底了解颤抖你会知道我
请让我在你身边
一起纪念 这一天
透过我的眼泪看你的脸
自由是我们需要的特权
你笑了我笑了笑了
这一天
Monday, January 28, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
howdy ho...
howdy ho...
sigh...today hasn't been that great. work la...not that work isn't great. more like...something...some THINGS cocked up at work. i kinda wish i could help it, but i just...well...it was out of my hands.
anyway...whatever. i'll deal with it when it comes. work is starting to stress me out, and i'm trying to take it as it comes, without taking on too much stress. BUT it's a bit hard la. trying not to take failures or cock-ups personally.
they say it's a thankless job. i think most jobs are, so you kinda have to take it in stride. i tried my best. maybe my best could have been better, but...ah well...who's to judge?
anyway, hopefully my weekend will turn out for the better. it's CNY soon so i'll just have to hang in there a bit more.
or in the worst case...i now have 6 new bottles of hoegaarden.
hahahahaaaaa....
in any case....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXIS!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY-MY (mi-mi)!!!!
sigh...today hasn't been that great. work la...not that work isn't great. more like...something...some THINGS cocked up at work. i kinda wish i could help it, but i just...well...it was out of my hands.
anyway...whatever. i'll deal with it when it comes. work is starting to stress me out, and i'm trying to take it as it comes, without taking on too much stress. BUT it's a bit hard la. trying not to take failures or cock-ups personally.
they say it's a thankless job. i think most jobs are, so you kinda have to take it in stride. i tried my best. maybe my best could have been better, but...ah well...who's to judge?
anyway, hopefully my weekend will turn out for the better. it's CNY soon so i'll just have to hang in there a bit more.
or in the worst case...i now have 6 new bottles of hoegaarden.
hahahahaaaaa....
in any case....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXIS!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY-MY (mi-mi)!!!!
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Spacing out.
i'm gonna just use the word that mel (one of my colleagues who reads my blog - HI MEL!!!) has adopted today.
s.p.a.c.e.d.
cause i'm feeling it too.
i kinda can't concentrate on work for a while. i call it the PLC...post-lunch-coma. looking at words and emails and tables and blah blah blah...my eyes just get into a daze and eventually...cross-eyed.
can't...keep...them...open.
so i don't care if ppl from work knows i'm not doing any work. it's my lunch break. and this doesn't take a whole day.
in fact, i haven't even been blogging at work...much.
anyway...
i feel like i don't have a firm grip on my life now. i have a grip...just not as firm. it's as if i'm depending on others to decide what i do, what i want, and what i feel. it's not necessarily a bad thing...but i think it loses a bit of the essence of "me". that...is not that nice. no. not very nice.
and it irks me that i can't just be bo-chap about it. i think it's because i have too strong a personality to begin with. so i feel weird when i become..."weak" (so to speak).
you know what all these mean?
it means i need a drink.
hahahahahaaaa
(now how many times have i said that?)
dear baby, pls be a good boy. stop eating things you shouldn't eat, biting things u shouldn't bite (me), scratching people you shouldn't scratch (me), and barking and howling and whining at unearthly hours. learn not to rip up the newspaper. that's your poopoo peepee buddy! mummy jiejie just wants you to be healthy (and sleeping most of the time). when you are good, then we can bring you out for walks and runs and bark/growl/pounce at strangers/other dogs/cats/people we don't like. ok???
s.p.a.c.e.d.
cause i'm feeling it too.
i kinda can't concentrate on work for a while. i call it the PLC...post-lunch-coma. looking at words and emails and tables and blah blah blah...my eyes just get into a daze and eventually...cross-eyed.
can't...keep...them...open.
so i don't care if ppl from work knows i'm not doing any work. it's my lunch break. and this doesn't take a whole day.
in fact, i haven't even been blogging at work...much.
anyway...
i feel like i don't have a firm grip on my life now. i have a grip...just not as firm. it's as if i'm depending on others to decide what i do, what i want, and what i feel. it's not necessarily a bad thing...but i think it loses a bit of the essence of "me". that...is not that nice. no. not very nice.
and it irks me that i can't just be bo-chap about it. i think it's because i have too strong a personality to begin with. so i feel weird when i become..."weak" (so to speak).
you know what all these mean?
it means i need a drink.
hahahahahaaaa
(now how many times have i said that?)
dear baby, pls be a good boy. stop eating things you shouldn't eat, biting things u shouldn't bite (me), scratching people you shouldn't scratch (me), and barking and howling and whining at unearthly hours. learn not to rip up the newspaper. that's your poopoo peepee buddy! mummy jiejie just wants you to be healthy (and sleeping most of the time). when you are good, then we can bring you out for walks and runs and bark/growl/pounce at strangers/other dogs/cats/people we don't like. ok???
Saturday, January 19, 2008
baaaah...
i can't decide if today was a fruitful day or not.
i woke up at an earthky hour...think it was 9+ am. cleaned up after louis, tried to cut his nails, entertained him a bit.
then i went down town in an attempt to get meself some CNY clothes. actually, just ONE set. i went wisma to collect a dress from miss selfridge which i bought about a week back. the buttons were coming off so i had them "maintained".
then i walked...and walked...and walked...
and saw nothing. tried nothing. bought nothing.
bah! wat a waste of time.
that was 3 hours wasted!
alone!
so i came back home. went causeway pt first to get some stuff for louis, and pao pao cha.
sigh...such a depressing day. i came back, mopped the floor, cleaned up after louis who is having a bit of diarrhoea. poor baby. he is getting very rowdy and naughty and heavy. i got a couple of scratches already. argh...
watching HEROES marathon. duh...can't believe myself.
I'M SO BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i woke up at an earthky hour...think it was 9+ am. cleaned up after louis, tried to cut his nails, entertained him a bit.
then i went down town in an attempt to get meself some CNY clothes. actually, just ONE set. i went wisma to collect a dress from miss selfridge which i bought about a week back. the buttons were coming off so i had them "maintained".
then i walked...and walked...and walked...
and saw nothing. tried nothing. bought nothing.
bah! wat a waste of time.
that was 3 hours wasted!
alone!
so i came back home. went causeway pt first to get some stuff for louis, and pao pao cha.
sigh...such a depressing day. i came back, mopped the floor, cleaned up after louis who is having a bit of diarrhoea. poor baby. he is getting very rowdy and naughty and heavy. i got a couple of scratches already. argh...
watching HEROES marathon. duh...can't believe myself.
I'M SO BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
ALL ABOUT LOUIS
yeah...it's ALL about louis.
nothing but him.
JUST louis.
on the way to the vet...
awww...sleep sleep...on the lil bed which he has already ripped up in a week.
still sleeping...
wide-eyed and awake!
oooh...tempting...haha
and presenting...
louis in his CNY clothes!!!
Monday, January 14, 2008
devil's monday
my blog is getting boring.
i know.
haha...ok let me try to spice it up a bit (and refrain from talking about louis).
i'm nursing a bit of a headache now.
it tends to happen when i get stressed about stuff. and it so happens i AM stressed about many many stuff. bah...
today is what i call a "devil's monday". yes...it's like i'm in hell and the evil beings are having a field day playing with my life.
"woo! how about throw her a spanner?!"
"oh! maybe shoot an arrow?!"
"ah...how about churning her brains into mush!?!"
boy, are they having fun!
no dinner. ate tom yam mee.
no alchie partner.
no drinks.
just a massive, massive headache and a ton load of work to do.
busy week for me.
i think i shall go play mario to destress.
WHERE'S MY HOEGARDDEN!?!?!
i hate today. :(
i know.
haha...ok let me try to spice it up a bit (and refrain from talking about louis).
i'm nursing a bit of a headache now.
it tends to happen when i get stressed about stuff. and it so happens i AM stressed about many many stuff. bah...
today is what i call a "devil's monday". yes...it's like i'm in hell and the evil beings are having a field day playing with my life.
"woo! how about throw her a spanner?!"
"oh! maybe shoot an arrow?!"
"ah...how about churning her brains into mush!?!"
boy, are they having fun!
no dinner. ate tom yam mee.
no alchie partner.
no drinks.
just a massive, massive headache and a ton load of work to do.
busy week for me.
i think i shall go play mario to destress.
WHERE'S MY HOEGARDDEN!?!?!
i hate today. :(
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Some thoughts.
I always say, shit happens.
OK...maybe I'm exagerrating a bit. It isn't exactly shit. My point is, things happen, and sometimes you can help it, sometimes (for some mundane, silly, overestimating reasons) you can't help it.
Some stuff makes you lose your inhibitions a bit.
Or a lot.
*ahem* (hahaha)
I digress. But what i mean to say is that things happen and there are a few ways to look at it.
One, you let it get to you.
Two, you let it slip, but it haunts you.
Three, you just move on.
I mean, the way you look at it depends on the severity of it. Or rather, it depends on how severe you perpetuate it to be. To one person, it may be nothing. To the next, it could be a major thing.
It's all circumstantial. Too many variables; too many things to factor in.
OK...so after beating around the bush for half the post already, what i'm trying to say is...
It was nothing.
There must be some trust that I can separate different aspects of my life.
No need to treat me any different.
My lips are zipped shut. (I'm scorpio...we keep secrets reeeally well.)
So please, just treat me the same as you would before.
Thanks.
(P/S: Whoever reads this and doesn't understand, it's ok. Not meant for you to understand, unless you can understand of course, which almost all of you won't. haha...take it that I'm letting out steam. =))
OK...maybe I'm exagerrating a bit. It isn't exactly shit. My point is, things happen, and sometimes you can help it, sometimes (for some mundane, silly, overestimating reasons) you can't help it.
Some stuff makes you lose your inhibitions a bit.
Or a lot.
*ahem* (hahaha)
I digress. But what i mean to say is that things happen and there are a few ways to look at it.
One, you let it get to you.
Two, you let it slip, but it haunts you.
Three, you just move on.
I mean, the way you look at it depends on the severity of it. Or rather, it depends on how severe you perpetuate it to be. To one person, it may be nothing. To the next, it could be a major thing.
It's all circumstantial. Too many variables; too many things to factor in.
OK...so after beating around the bush for half the post already, what i'm trying to say is...
It was nothing.
There must be some trust that I can separate different aspects of my life.
No need to treat me any different.
My lips are zipped shut. (I'm scorpio...we keep secrets reeeally well.)
So please, just treat me the same as you would before.
Thanks.
(P/S: Whoever reads this and doesn't understand, it's ok. Not meant for you to understand, unless you can understand of course, which almost all of you won't. haha...take it that I'm letting out steam. =))
Friday, January 04, 2008
Detachment
i suddenly realise that i tend to be rather detached from a lot of things.
i wonder if it's just a scorpio thing. you know, being mysterious and all.
it's just that i have this very independent streak and sometimes, it makes me detached and aloof.
anyway, this is not about me.
i've been thinking of doing an activity for MS. it's still in the planning stage, and we haven't talk to laoshi about it. but to give everyone (or anyone who reads my blog) the heads-up, the tentative plan is to have an amazing race-like thingy in sentosa. we will have games, activities, brainteasers, etc from one station to the next, very much like amazing race, but smaller scale. got detour and road blocks and stuff. hahahaha....a lot of work though. we'll need to recce the whole of sentosa, look for info and games and activities to test participants, make sure we won't need to make ppl pay too much money but have fun, make sure WE don't spend too much money, get the props and clues ready, get support staff like station managers, coordinators, cameramen and photographer (xuan??? hahahaaa)...a lot of work lah.
currently, we have xieshun and i on board. of course we'll include the usual suspects and see who wans to be support staff, and who wants to be participants.
XIESHUN!!! WE NEED A CO-ORD MEETING SOON!!
anyway, we are slating it for the CNY weekend when MS is closed for CNY, so everybody can take part.
cool idea???
what do you guys think?
i'm very excited. damn excited. tooooo excited!
SHUNNNIE!!! Can we have the meeting this week??? Say...err...Sun? Wed? haha...when I'm at MS? hahahaaaa....gather your troops!!
ok.
louis is going for his 2nd vaccination shot today. hohoho...think he's gonna feel quite sore about it. oh btw, he knows how to "sit" already! very cute...i used the doggie xiao man tou to train him. so now he sees the bag of xiao man tou, he auto-sit. hahahahaaaaa.
watched Elizabeth: The Golden Age yesterday. GOOD movie. i liked it. i always have this fascination for British royalty and the history behind it. should go watch it if you like some history and also for the beautiful and always elegant Cate Blanchett. she's goooood!
yibedee...that's all folks.
i wonder if it's just a scorpio thing. you know, being mysterious and all.
it's just that i have this very independent streak and sometimes, it makes me detached and aloof.
anyway, this is not about me.
i've been thinking of doing an activity for MS. it's still in the planning stage, and we haven't talk to laoshi about it. but to give everyone (or anyone who reads my blog) the heads-up, the tentative plan is to have an amazing race-like thingy in sentosa. we will have games, activities, brainteasers, etc from one station to the next, very much like amazing race, but smaller scale. got detour and road blocks and stuff. hahahaha....a lot of work though. we'll need to recce the whole of sentosa, look for info and games and activities to test participants, make sure we won't need to make ppl pay too much money but have fun, make sure WE don't spend too much money, get the props and clues ready, get support staff like station managers, coordinators, cameramen and photographer (xuan??? hahahaaa)...a lot of work lah.
currently, we have xieshun and i on board. of course we'll include the usual suspects and see who wans to be support staff, and who wants to be participants.
XIESHUN!!! WE NEED A CO-ORD MEETING SOON!!
anyway, we are slating it for the CNY weekend when MS is closed for CNY, so everybody can take part.
cool idea???
what do you guys think?
i'm very excited. damn excited. tooooo excited!
SHUNNNIE!!! Can we have the meeting this week??? Say...err...Sun? Wed? haha...when I'm at MS? hahahaaaa....gather your troops!!
ok.
louis is going for his 2nd vaccination shot today. hohoho...think he's gonna feel quite sore about it. oh btw, he knows how to "sit" already! very cute...i used the doggie xiao man tou to train him. so now he sees the bag of xiao man tou, he auto-sit. hahahahaaaaa.
watched Elizabeth: The Golden Age yesterday. GOOD movie. i liked it. i always have this fascination for British royalty and the history behind it. should go watch it if you like some history and also for the beautiful and always elegant Cate Blanchett. she's goooood!
yibedee...that's all folks.
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