trying to focus in holland

it's a sat, but i don't have to work today.

or do i?

slept through the morning after a night of D & D (see previous post). my goal for today was to start on, and hopefully, complete a paper today.

let's see...it's 6.14pm already. i haven't written a thing. not good huh?

i've been distracted the whole day. first by TV (re-runs of Friends), and then i decided to come down to holland v so i can focus better. now i'm distracted by people, cute kids making funny noises, and someone's nokia phone that keeps beeping (you know, that nokia message tone).

and now, i'm hungry coz i smell food!

eeks!!! what's happening?!?!

i need to start something!!! i call this paper "the lord-of-the-rings paper", coz i'm the "one ring that binds them all". yeah right.

anyway, a bit more about yesterday. i hope i won't get a backlash for it. or any consequence for that matter. it was just a harmless invite. i think everybody ought to de-stress, and everybody ought to be given this chance to do so, regardless of who you are. there wasn't any motive or hint or message. it was just a chance to chill, away from the workplace.

so there, i said my peace.

i have a feeling i'm gonna be miss unpopular.

haiyah...fark it la. i should be used to being bitched about or whatever. me has clear conscience. me will continue being meself.

ok...i'm getting reeeeally hungry. =(

focus, nana, focus!!!

i need to party

party?

any parties???

i need to party! quick!

i wanna go D & D (dance & drink) my stresses and wearies away!

wooooooooo!!!

anyone? any parties? come on!!! gimme one!!!

i wanna party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

累到不行

i think whoever still bothers to read my blog is probably sick of me writing that i'm busy.

hell, even i am sick of saying it.

but i really dunno how else to describe this period of time.

it's bad. really bad. i feel soooo stretched...so stressed...so overworked.

i don't get enough rest. i work late everyday. i miss meals. i get worked up. i don't even have time to get a drink like i used to.

and i hate the phone and the computers/laptops.

how is it possible to be using 3 computers/laptops at a time?

or have all 3 phones ringing at the same time?

this is precisely the gigan-tuous amount of things i have to do. and as much as i wish someone could help me, there isn't really much anyone can do anymore (even though i have some ppl helping me).

i am soooo tired...sooo drained...and sooo....ARGH! and i can't blame anyone for it because...argh!!!

you know, i really...really can cry just thinking about it.

i don't even know what i am so upset about. except that i wish i could just not think, not do, not have ANYTHING for 1 day.

i don't even have time to buy body wash!!!!!!!!!! i eat instant noodles coz it's too late to buy food, or i'm too tired to shop for groceries nor cook...not even dabao home to eat. when i go meet friends for whatever, it has to be late, at least after 8pm...and i feel so tired and sleepy that i feel so bad that i can't even enjoy myself for that 1-2 hours. i haven't been able to do ANY of the things that i like to do...not even once so often. no drinking, no chilling out, no partying, no karaoke-ing, no singing, no life!

but you know what sucks the most?

i don't hate my job.

i'm just really really really tired today.

exhausted and frustrated that today, this week...has been worse than last few weeks combined...and tomorrow, next week, could be even worse...

and i can't comfort myself.

-struggling-

5 words i hate now

you know, it really pisses me off whenever i hear these five words now.

i mean, if it's people that i know, that are close, i dun mind that much.

but some random dodo bird comes up to me and ask me "do you have XXX tickets?"...

really, really pisses me off.

like...f-off la.

have also don't give you.

anyway, i don't have...much.