累到不行

i think whoever still bothers to read my blog is probably sick of me writing that i'm busy.

hell, even i am sick of saying it.

but i really dunno how else to describe this period of time.

it's bad. really bad. i feel soooo stretched...so stressed...so overworked.

i don't get enough rest. i work late everyday. i miss meals. i get worked up. i don't even have time to get a drink like i used to.

and i hate the phone and the computers/laptops.

how is it possible to be using 3 computers/laptops at a time?

or have all 3 phones ringing at the same time?

this is precisely the gigan-tuous amount of things i have to do. and as much as i wish someone could help me, there isn't really much anyone can do anymore (even though i have some ppl helping me).

i am soooo tired...sooo drained...and sooo....ARGH! and i can't blame anyone for it because...argh!!!

you know, i really...really can cry just thinking about it.

i don't even know what i am so upset about. except that i wish i could just not think, not do, not have ANYTHING for 1 day.

i don't even have time to buy body wash!!!!!!!!!! i eat instant noodles coz it's too late to buy food, or i'm too tired to shop for groceries nor cook...not even dabao home to eat. when i go meet friends for whatever, it has to be late, at least after 8pm...and i feel so tired and sleepy that i feel so bad that i can't even enjoy myself for that 1-2 hours. i haven't been able to do ANY of the things that i like to do...not even once so often. no drinking, no chilling out, no partying, no karaoke-ing, no singing, no life!

but you know what sucks the most?

i don't hate my job.

i'm just really really really tired today.

exhausted and frustrated that today, this week...has been worse than last few weeks combined...and tomorrow, next week, could be even worse...

and i can't comfort myself.

-struggling-