An Explosion of Emotions

i hardly do this but i had to. yup...2 posts in a day!

CORNY: see previous post.

EXCITED: my aunt's dog genie finally gave birth to 2 little baby boys. i'm gonna get one of them. YAY!!! finally!! my own little doggie. i'm gonna love him like my own child, feed him, play with him, take photos of him and train him to bark with me when i sing! wahahahahaaaa...first, i need to think of a name. hmm...

AND SOME MIXTURE OF UNPLEASANT EMOTIONS: sigh...here we go.

i dunno how to say this. it's like all these pent-up emotions inside me, and today, i was honestly on the brink of doing an all-hell-break-lose-thingy. i didn't, coz i didn't wanna make things unpleasant. i mean, it's just a few more days, so why risk it?

this whole bunch of unpleasant-ness comes on 2 different levels.

sometimes, i dun understand how some things can become so misconstrued. sometimes u do things with the some intention and it gets turned around and becomes personal when it wasn't in the first place. i'm not the kind who will address issues that turn personal. 算了, 反正有些事情是无法解释, 也解释不了的. 可能说多了, 会造成更多问题, 或说了些不该说的. and i dun have the capacity and luxury of explaining.

but it gets to me when i feel like my silence is taken for granted. ok, maybe not just mine...but yeah...taken for granted all the same.

i'm not angry...just slightly disappointed. and also slightly amused by how things are playing out. i think it's really difficult to overturn trust issues.

the way things are, i always wonder why.

why?