when things change

i'll have my sundays freed up from now on, though that doesn't mean i'll be free every sunday.

things change.

things have changed.

it's beginning. work...is beginning to get slightly unbearable at times. sometimes, i really wish people would be more helpful, or not try to get away with stuff, and just be nicer.

not be some two-faced person. sometimes they are like the best of friends with you, and some other time they will shirk all responsibility or "become professional" all of a sudden.

i dunno about others, but i really try my best to accomodate everyone, or to make people's life easier, or to be helpful and work towards a single, same goal.

is it just me doing that???

of course i have nice, helpful colleagues.

but you know how 1 rotten apple spoils the basket.

apparently, there are a few rotten apples.

ARRRGHHHHH!!!!

the place feels disjointed at time. like there isn't camaraderie...even between people in the same department, same branch.

well, except for my branch la.

or maybe i'm just being biased. hehehehe

BUT!!! i'm still very angry lah!!! i'm angry at "giant" people. why so "giant"???

it's very streneous to have to plot and calculate and think of how to do things diplomatically.

I WANNA GO ON A LOOOOOONG BREAK!!!!

I HAVEN'T TAKEN A FARKING DAY OFF IN MONTHS!!!! MONTHS!!!!!!

THE LAST TIME I TOOK A DAY OFF WAS FOR MY SISTER'S ROM!?!?!!? it was wat? march???

FARKING TIRED LAH!!!

how come people get to take day offs, get to go home early and i don't.

and i have to deal with so much shit, and other people's shit, and chase people's backside, and have others make me feel like shit, as if i have nothing better to do, as if i haven't done ANYTHING.

appreciation is not over-rated.

appreciate me, please.

trying to focus in holland

it's a sat, but i don't have to work today.

or do i?

slept through the morning after a night of D & D (see previous post). my goal for today was to start on, and hopefully, complete a paper today.

let's see...it's 6.14pm already. i haven't written a thing. not good huh?

i've been distracted the whole day. first by TV (re-runs of Friends), and then i decided to come down to holland v so i can focus better. now i'm distracted by people, cute kids making funny noises, and someone's nokia phone that keeps beeping (you know, that nokia message tone).

and now, i'm hungry coz i smell food!

eeks!!! what's happening?!?!

i need to start something!!! i call this paper "the lord-of-the-rings paper", coz i'm the "one ring that binds them all". yeah right.

anyway, a bit more about yesterday. i hope i won't get a backlash for it. or any consequence for that matter. it was just a harmless invite. i think everybody ought to de-stress, and everybody ought to be given this chance to do so, regardless of who you are. there wasn't any motive or hint or message. it was just a chance to chill, away from the workplace.

so there, i said my peace.

i have a feeling i'm gonna be miss unpopular.

haiyah...fark it la. i should be used to being bitched about or whatever. me has clear conscience. me will continue being meself.

ok...i'm getting reeeeally hungry. =(

focus, nana, focus!!!

i need to party

party?

any parties???

i need to party! quick!

i wanna go D & D (dance & drink) my stresses and wearies away!

wooooooooo!!!

anyone? any parties? come on!!! gimme one!!!

i wanna party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

累到不行

i think whoever still bothers to read my blog is probably sick of me writing that i'm busy.

hell, even i am sick of saying it.

but i really dunno how else to describe this period of time.

it's bad. really bad. i feel soooo stretched...so stressed...so overworked.

i don't get enough rest. i work late everyday. i miss meals. i get worked up. i don't even have time to get a drink like i used to.

and i hate the phone and the computers/laptops.

how is it possible to be using 3 computers/laptops at a time?

or have all 3 phones ringing at the same time?

this is precisely the gigan-tuous amount of things i have to do. and as much as i wish someone could help me, there isn't really much anyone can do anymore (even though i have some ppl helping me).

i am soooo tired...sooo drained...and sooo....ARGH! and i can't blame anyone for it because...argh!!!

you know, i really...really can cry just thinking about it.

i don't even know what i am so upset about. except that i wish i could just not think, not do, not have ANYTHING for 1 day.

i don't even have time to buy body wash!!!!!!!!!! i eat instant noodles coz it's too late to buy food, or i'm too tired to shop for groceries nor cook...not even dabao home to eat. when i go meet friends for whatever, it has to be late, at least after 8pm...and i feel so tired and sleepy that i feel so bad that i can't even enjoy myself for that 1-2 hours. i haven't been able to do ANY of the things that i like to do...not even once so often. no drinking, no chilling out, no partying, no karaoke-ing, no singing, no life!

but you know what sucks the most?

i don't hate my job.

i'm just really really really tired today.

exhausted and frustrated that today, this week...has been worse than last few weeks combined...and tomorrow, next week, could be even worse...

and i can't comfort myself.

-struggling-

5 words i hate now

you know, it really pisses me off whenever i hear these five words now.

i mean, if it's people that i know, that are close, i dun mind that much.

but some random dodo bird comes up to me and ask me "do you have XXX tickets?"...

really, really pisses me off.

like...f-off la.

have also don't give you.

anyway, i don't have...much.

Photos coming soon

Back from a nice short break.

By break, i mostly mean getting away from home, from office, from all things familiar.

melbourne was nice. cool. nice. but too short.

bintan happened too damn quickly. but it was loads of fun...and a nice good facial/massage.

photos should come soon (if i get the time to upload them)...i hope...

i'm going melbourne again in oct.

i hope to go bintan again soon!!!! do a full body massage this time!

-yawn-

Happy Birthday Music Story, Shirley and Laoshi!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUSIC STORY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLEY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAOSHI!!!

oh...and happy farthers' day to all daddies!! hehehe...

okie dokes, with the wishes out of the way, what i really wanna talk about was yesterday's anniversary/singout finals.

it's been a long journey, and in a way, i felt glad to be a little part of the journey (despite all the pek-chek-ness, near peng experience, etc...).

what i was really happy about was the progress of all the contestants. the show rocked last night! i wouldn't have believed it was real if i didn't see it for myself. really, really great job!

and of course all those who worked hard to make the event happen. it wasn't easy. it was never gonna be easy, but you guys pulled it off. i wished i had that extent of effort and help and manpower when i did the anniversary at the same place 2 years ago. haha...maybe it wouldn't have been so cocked up. good job guys and girls!

ok...1 event down...time to plan for the next event?

haha...just kidding (or maybe not?)...

for me, i still have many many things to do. going to melbourne on wed to fri on work trip, haven't packed yet. going on weekend getaway to bintan...also haven't packed. cham!

back to work!

the buzz...never left

you know something is wrong when i get oh so quiet in such a long time.

actually, nothing is wrong.

i'm JUST still busy. have been busy. will be busy...for a while.

BUT, it's good busy i suppose. I mean, i'm doing all the BIG budget stuff what. can't be that bad right?

WRONG...fire-fighting has never been so tough. i don't mind big fires. what really gets on my nerves are the littlest bush fires that never go away.

GO AWAY!!!

well at least my boss..both my bosses...have been insistent that i go for that working trip next week. all the way to melbourne. ahhh~~~ my first trip to australia! and my first working trip! wooh! that must be the only icing on the cake, because going means i'm staddling 2 major events/project around the same time frame.

i can see my weeknights fading away...and my weekends sliding away too...and...and...

i told my boss i'm taking 1 month off after october.

he told me as long as i came back after 1 month...hahaha...

i suspect i'll be too broke after 2 weeks to not go to work anyway.

is it too early to plan for 2 year-end holidays?

here for you

to my dear dear friend...

we love you.

we are here for you.

always will be.




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it hurts for a long time. and it takes a longer time to heal, if you ever heal. each day, each hour, each minute, each second...seems so much longer than it actually is. just got to take it a step at a time...one at a time.

it's hard. it's so hard.

i wish i could do more.

and to see her hurt so much...

just wish i could do more.

rewarding oneself

i had a wonderful may day, considering nobody really celebrates labour day. (no think about it, NOBODY celebrates labour day!) i finally met up with shir babe and we had an oomphatuatious time!

look at the lovely deco and lovely brunch we had!

shir's lovely drink and my cute latte!

shir's organic waffles! yum!

all the staff had a cute personal note on their backs. aww...poor lady!

and shir never lets me off without a pic with xiaotu.

after walking quite a bit, we got tired. bakerzin we go!!

my lovely shir and me~!

even xiaotu can't resist the strawberry choc fondue, lime sorbet and dark choc ice-cream! yummy!!

i'm looking at xiaotu for divine intervention. nah...just asking xiaotu if i should or i shouldn't...
it's so tempting!!!

i succumbed.

behold!

my first miu miu!

(ok, i'll take a nicer pic of it when i get time to take a pic of it.)