NEVER!

yesterday...sunday...10 Feb 08.

The one sunday that i was free from you-know-what.

i woke up at 6.30am (by the whining of louis)...to find an sms. Read it. Muttered "fuck it". Tried to go back to sleep until 7am (the time i set my alarm to).

Tossed...turned...thought...argh...woke up 15mins later.

So what, that i didn't have enough sleep. So what, that my free sunday is technically, not free anymore. So what? I told myself I would enjoy SENTOSA! Not let people ruin it. Not let my efforts, time (free or not), and sleep go to waste.

To be honest...i DID have fun in sentosa. I guess is a way, i glad we cancelled the 2nd part coz it would have been rather disastrous to go on a holiday-sunday with the crowd gathering to see (of all things) flowers. the company, no doubt small, was good company. everybody there was in high spirits and we entertained ourselves very well, despite the small turnout.

thanks joyce, shun, wayne, cordelia, mireen, jasper, yihong, zm, daph, vivian, ah dao and evelyn (even though u came at blardy 12!!!) for making this day, not as bad and seriously fun! (i have videos to prove...wahahahaaa...koong lrooong~)

ok. now the disappointing part.

i got quite disappointed by the turnout.

MORE disappointed at the lack of support, especially the people who "suddenly" couldn't come. (besides adeline...i understand, and at least she had the decency to tell me the day before, not less than 6 hrs before, or even on the day itself. might as well don't tell.)

i think what really got to me was...that the team is made up of people who VOLUNTEERED their time and puts in effort to try and let everyone have some fun. all of us just want to enjoy ourselves. so what that we aren't paid? EVEN SO, we just asked for 2 things.

1. responsibility.

2. commitment.

i seriously question if some of these people who had volunteered to help organise this have any of the two. how can we expect them to "lead" the rest? how can we believe that you really want to help, to give back, and to make the place a better place to be in, blah blah blah?

anyway, i've given my two cents' worth. i think we should deal and get past this.

On a separate note....NEVER!!!



next issue.

i think, i have tried too hard to make things work or to try and make people see some clarity in what they do.

i don't think i can get into their numbskulls.

so i don't want to try anymore.

i don't want to ask, and i don't want to be bothered by it.

they can act dumb, be stupid or totally irrational, selfish or self-centred for all i care.

they can lie, cheat, murder, slaughter, kidnap, eat their own brains (or others') for all i care.

I DON'T CARE ANYMORE.

is it just me or do people become stupid once they hit a certain age? it seems that way to me.

i hope i still have the clarity of mind to do the right thing and uphold my moral values when i hit that age in 3 years' time.

no, seriously.

don't talk to me.

just...save it.

Note to self: Out with the negativity. In with the positivity. Think: karma.energy.life.