恶心

it's quite disgusting to play MJ with me recently.

as much as it's more disgusting to play with evelyn, and MORE so sarah. (sarah is 恶心皇后!)

anyway, i'm not addicted to MJ la, even though i play every week (note: no "almost"). and even if i played on fri and sat, it doesn't mean i'm addicted.

i just enjoy MJ. winning is just a bonus.

recently got quite a lot of bonuses. hahahahaaaaa

yah lah, i dun wanna dwell much into it, but anyway...it's 蛮恶心的！

so i met arvin on fri at holland v. dat dude was late but since he was treating me, i don't mind...much. haha. we had a good talk about the good old days and updates and usual tekan session. it was rather nice. we had white wine over dinner. yah i know, drinking before a MJ session, not the smartest thing. doesn't matter coz i won at MJ anyway. he was nice enough to drive me to xuan's place la.

oh! taiwan trip seems to be lining up nicely. i'm very excited about it.

and my BKK trip too!!

SHOPPING 我来也！！！

do u miss me?

haiya....

i feel so lost not going to work!!

i know this sounds rather sarcastic but i really mean it. i'm not going back to the office until next week. i'm half enjoying myself coz i don't need to do work, but i miss my nice cubbie and my colleagues!

let me digress a bit.

a lot.

as always.

i FINALLY met shirley babe yesterday! we had sushi tei...yum yum...and we went haagen dazs for ice-cream and tea afterwards. we had a looooooooooong talk about everything and anything. wish stef could join us but she's too busy. nevermind, next date is 14 oct! ok dears???

note to all men:

when the woman tells u her problems, all she asks is for u to listen. it is scientifically-proven that women are smarter than men. so she is intelligent enough to solve her problems. DON'T TRY TO SOLVE HER PROBLEMS. Unless she asks u for an opinion or a solution, DON'T GIVE ONE! just...listen!

today, part of my course was this heritage tour. we went NEWater visitors' centre, the changi chapel and museum, and johor battery. the first part was really interesting...the last stop was honestly the worst! anyway, i just realised that singapore isn't that boring. i've been living in this small island for close to 25 years already, and there are STILL places i haven't gone and haven't seen. and even if i have, it's been ages since i've been back there.

let's explore singapore whenever we can!

i want to.

bought the "Secret" DVD. watched it all over again. ahh....so nice... i think i can watch it a few more times. so nice. so nice. SO NICE!!!

i'm so looking forward to bangkok.

and i really wanna get the sony ericsson M600i.

i think i'm gonna sell my nokia camera phone. the phone that i sort of got for my christmas present and half-painstakingly paid for. the fone that contained so many memories...but i haven't touched in about 2-3 months.

shld i sell it? i dunno leh...a bit bu she de. but i don't use it, either consciously or subconsciously. how sia...

maybe i shld get a sugar daddy to buy me the sony ericsson while i decide if i wanna sell my nokia camera phone...

even though i can well afford it.

how sia???

sleep...no sleep...too much sleep

headache...

had an overnight mj marathon at xuan's place (the usual) on fri and i didn't sleep at all. sat had to work. stoned. didn't look stoned, but was stoned. had chicken rice treat. more stoned.

by the time i reached home. it was 5+pm. i slept all the way until 10am this morning. that's about 16 hours, yeah?

no sleep...no good...too much sleep...headache!

argh~~!!

throbbing headache!!

anyway, i'm on course for 1 week, so won't be on msn during the day time. hahaaa...

i think it's good timing.

it's not to much getting away from work. well, maybe a little. it's also good course i'm starting to gain a bit of attention at work.

don't really enjoy this kinda attention.

i mean, i wanna do my job well, but keep a low profile.

but it's getting a bit hard when da big boss (henceforth known as DBB) pays u a bit more attention than the rest.

i don't wanna be bitched about at work, if ya know what i mean.

what's more, i am not the kind who like to por (aka suck up to) people or bosses. i just wanna do my job well and make my bossed happy BY DOING THE JOB WELL.

i don't know la.

dilemma.

in a way i'm glad that DBB thinks i'm a talent or whatever good things he thinks i am. but i hope it won't put a strain on my working relationship with my other bosses/colleagues...or even friendship with them.

baaaaaaaa...

hardly.any.time.to.breathe.

i have been working from the second i stepped into office until about 15 mins ago.

i decided i've worked too damn hard today, and so i shall take my "alone time" 20 mins before work ends.

as of now. i have about 5 mins to go.

i actually have nothing much to blog about.

oh, i'm going on course on fri, the next mon to fri. so that's about 1 week away from work. i got to work on Sat though.

oh shit!!! friday MJ how?!?!?!?!

Option 1: fark care...just play and go straight to work...and look like a zombie emcee.

Option 2: fark care...just play and take 2 hr rest before heading to work...and look like a zombie emcee.

Option 3: don't play MJ.

yeah rite...as if i will even as much as CONSIDER Option 3.

i think it's a toss up between 1 or 2.

in any case, i always manage to look normal despite sleeping at unearthly hours, if any at all. so fark it la.

ok! i can go home liao!!!

bkk in 2 week's time!!! WOOSH!!! SHOPPING WO LAI YE~~~!!!!

Mario Kart

I'm gonna write a little something about this game that has influenced so many people.

It has grasp the imagination and ambition of many, such that they end up buying DS Lite JUST SO that they can 'battle' it out with their peers.

Yes...this is ONE POWERFUL FORCE.

MARIO KART!

I did I say I was gonna write "a little something".

This is it...

I HAVE UNLOCKED ALL THE CHARACTERS AND ALL THE CARTS!!

aka...

12 Characters!

36 Karts!

nyak nyak nyak...wahahahahaha!!!

wrap up and cut off!

let me WRAP UP my week so far in some pictures and words.

monday was a freaky and weird day. 2 secs after xuan finished typing her blog (before it's up even), i asked her when we were going chatterbox to conduct the Opening Ceremony of my Citibank Card.

she thought i read her blog already, even though it was hardly uploaded yet.

freaky! i read her mind.

so we decided to go. peishan joined us too. evelyn was too tired...poor thing.

before we met xuan though, peishan and i were desperately trying to meet each other at different mango outlets. long story short, we finally met at taka mango and i realised taka was surprisingly quiet and dark.

oh! no wonder! taka had their annual D & D. so i commented, "for all you know, their D & D is just at mandarin hotel. gang gang hao zuo wan gong, zou guo qu jiu xing le (aka, just nice, work finish, just walk over.)"

and we laughed about it.

met xuan at mandarin and saw some aunties and weirdly dressed up people at the lobby. shan saw an auntie she used to work with.

shan (in mandarin): eh!? how come u are here?

auntie (in mandarin): oh! today taka D&D mah! it's here!

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FREAKYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

ANYWAY, we had the chatterbox overpriced chicken rice set. luckily this time, i remembered to ask xuan to take photo before we finished the food.

here's me and my chicken rice set and DAMN sour lime juice.
here's shan and hers!

oops! forgot to take xuan! but nevermind, here's the MOST impt part!

Open-ed Ceremony!!!

another big thing this week...

i....

CHOPPED UP...

my hair!!!

woosh! pictures next time ba. or maybe by then, most people would have seen me with the new do already. heck then. haha...keep ya is suspense! they say women always do drastic things to their hair or look when something BIG happens. anything BIG??? i don't think so...i just feel like it. haha, i always do that.

AND...i bought my tix to BKK already. leaving in oct. i always go BKK in oct. haha. no, i didn't wait for NATAS fair. heeeee...

saw the news? yeap! me getting bonus...AGAIN! yippeeee!!! taiwan bu yong chou le!!!

yeeeeeah...life is goooooooood.

i am so bored.

i think i can count the number of times i say that.

"i'm so bored."

but the thing is, it's not as if i have nothing to do. it's just human to complain when there's too much things to do, and complain when u have nothing to do. and even if u have something to do, u complain that u dun want to do it.

so i'm bored, not coz i have nothing to do (i have things to clear at work). it's just that i don't have a PILE of things to do that makes me crazy busy (that's when i complain i'm so busy).

like now. i have a report to do on one comp, a transcript on my lap, and i'm blogging on the other comp.

i'm just so contradictory.

and all humans are, so i'm spared from any backlash.

k...enough philosophy on me being bored and contradicting.

my weekends were cool. i went on a shopping trip with my sis - the flying-slightly-bimbotic one (she reads me blog, so...yes, she knows i call her that). we didn't buy much, but we walked around quite a bit. actually, we were always eyeing stuff that she can get cheaper overseas or at DFS. had lunch at din tai fung (my lunch, she just snacked). then went taka and paragon to walk abit. saw chriz and her mr perfect. walked somemore until we decided to go TCC for a quick tea and rest (and she just snacked again). headed to DFS galleria to eye more stuff that we can't afford (yet). and then we went far east plaza.

ooh...i bought ANOTHER pair of heels. hiak hiak! forever! and i spotted a dress, tried it on, thought it was perfect for shirley's ROM!!! it's a black chic, shapeless dress though. shirley, can anot? u said no white ma. anyway, if it's ok, then STEF, u must wear a black dress too!!! anyway, black is stef's fav colour. if she could, she would paint her body in black so she dun have to decide wat to wear. hahaha...

it's being altered now, so i can't show it yet.

THEN, that's it. wanted to go home for mj. suay, had a blackout in my block, and the electricity was only restored at around 12. sianz...no mj. my sisters and i played pinball, minesweeper and this pat sajak's gameshow on the lappie until it died.

sunday, my only source of motivation was HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2!!!

ok, my lil sis is officially disgusted with me, and STILL feels i don't have a childhood. that's why i'm re-living mine now.

zac efron's hot!! so hot!! hot bod! hot eyes! (a lil short, but he's still GROWING) hot hot hot!!!

i think everyone's got my point.

side note (also for my flying-slightly-bimbotic sis to see):

i'm eyeing 2 red by marc ecko bags! only US$59 each!! should i just get both???

(thinks for a sec...)

yesh!

mambo, rock-climbing and CRABS!

i FINALLY went to mambo last night. it's my first time there in years! wahaha...i felt so old.

anyway, i was there with hx, mike and darryl. also met Cheong aka My-My (as in mi-mi) with his bro and friends. they were there earlier, and we played 5-10. i won mostly. hahahaaaa...finally, me and My-My could relive the old days when we mambo-ed. and just like before, i was mambo-ing with a whole bunch of guys. 7 to be exact. hahaha...

those were the days...but yesterday was really fun. we shall do it again, with MORE people!!! woohoo~~~ man, do i miss mambo. haha...

today was also fruitful, coz i went ROCK-CLIMBING!!!

woah! it was fun. finally met dean, the instructor dat xuan talks about all the time. jasper and xuan (of coz) were there. according to xuan, jasper and i did quite well for a first-timer! was rather apprehensive and shy to start at first, but i really warmed up to it and enjoyed myself thoroughly.

we must do it again!!! and i wanna see how evelyn would do...hahaha...too bad she couldn't join us!

and after that...CRABS!!!!!!!!! xuan treated us to crabs!! we ordered 1 chilli crab and 1 beehoon crab soup and sambal kangkong. NICEEEEEEEEEE!!!! i ate 4 leggie-parts, so did xuan, and jasper had the 4 gongs (claws)! yummylicious!

we must ALSO do this again! with more people, and more variety of crabs!!! -slurp-

and...happy happy! i got my citibank card le!!! YAY!!!!!! can sign le!

okok, enough excitement for the day. pictures below!!!

jasper, me and xuan get ready for rock-climbing!!

this is my first attempt!! it was hot man, those rocks! xuan says i look so pro here. haha!

this was after my 2nd attempt...fingers too weak to even do a victory sign!

then it's CRAB time!!! see my power fingers at work!

enjoying my last piece of crab! i used all 5 fingers on each hand! -lick-

A Very Important Message!

If A Man Wants You

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant tobe. Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his . Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you . If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. (Nana's Note: And they NEVER change.)

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are .

Never borrow someone else's man . Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs. (Nana's note: At least dogs are loyal.)

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you are always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

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I'm not condemning all men.

I'm just condemning some.

I don't hate men.

Because if I actually take the effort to hate them, I'll be wasting my energy.

I just disregard their existence, and feel that them being alive on this earth is an absolute waste.

So I cast them away, as far as I can, so they never exist. Not even a figment of my imagination.

Now I confront myself.

I have been harbouring a lot of anger.

Anger is an issue I cannot resolve. For I don't know what it is feeding into this. All I can do is subdue this demon in me as best as I can, so that this anger does not swallow me whole. Does not eat away my spirit, take away my soul, nor rob me of my happiness.

God knows how long it will take before this anger goes away.

God knows what it will take.

I need patience, understanding, release...and time.

I was fine...and you had to come and ruin things for me. Can't you just screw with someone else's life? I'm sure there's more where you came from.

For the final time...fuck off.

final memories of me~

i really really really...was very touched by what some of you wrote in response to my post "final memories".

and so, for the record...


xieshun:
i will say calvina is a hao nv ren. (:

xuan:
"CAL = Chao Ah Lian "-- haha.... er... memory of u..hmm my DS cum MJ kakis

JuKeBoX^:
Hmm...My memories of you would be of the times I sent you home~ I'd say goodbye, smile and wave hahaha~

yingzz:
imemories will be the day that u danced Mr Q in MC/MS..

xinjie:
hahaha memories of you running xD

DAPH:
nana, y ur post like so sad,i think everyone memories towards u ish not sad de lorh.my memories of nana, haahas dun wan say i think very mushy leh, LOOLS

shiying:
Too many memories le.. from i first join MS ~ the first impression of u, the few months that i always go MS, the always there de u, until when join choir the stricter u, til the minds cafe playing the animal game de u until now de always bz, =D, playing DS de u.. hahas.. jiu special bah.. like mei you ren hui lou diao ni in their memories lor =D

xieshun (again):
if there's gg to be an image i will recall abt u is... u saying the shoes in thai v cheap chuan yi ci throw liao ye shuang

ev31yn:
my memory of u will be (1) bitching partner-those times when we'll bitch bout people, and also talk bout our perceptions towards certain things/issue. (2) teach mi mahjong de u. (3) always scold mi stupid de u. (4) stare at people super scary de u. (4)you=my skinniest friend alive. many more. n not to forget. A girl who can sing damn well, but not yet a star. weee...sSTAR!

kerrryyyy:
nxt time i everyday will email u kaes..hehe..den u will also have memory of me...wahahas

ok, and i just have 1 thing to say.

and that is...



KERRY IS ALWAYS SOOOO OUT OF POINT!!!!

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=D

时间啊！可以再长一点吗？

i'm seriously lacking of time.

i hope it's just this week. because i haven't had a single moment of fun or relaxation this entire week. army open house loh! take up so much of my time already. bo bian...it's work. but truth be told, despite all the exhaustion and lack of sleep and rushing and f-ups and blah blah, i still quite enjoy my job. and...the 10th is coming!

and...happy happy happy!! $$_$$

no mj or movie this week. the closest thing i had was celebrating MS JASMINE ANG YIH LING's birthday! i had to rush down from pasir laba camp at jurong to MS. had a short rehearsal, and then we celebrated her birthday totally out of the blue! wahaha...for pix, pls see her blog or kerry's blog. hur hur...

too bad i had to rush off coz i had to wake up at farking 5am the next day. we'll find another time to celebrate ok? pls...no more tian tian...i getting quite sick of it. we can do the secret?!? again?!?

no MJ this week. even my dad was surprised. too tired and no time to la. nvm, there is always this COMING WEEK! hahaha...and rock climbing too! woohoo~~!! shiok la!

oh oh! congrats to ZHUMING! he got into "be a star" finals!! woohoo~~ 不错嘛，哈哈！ in any case, a whole bunch of us said we'll go genting to cheer him on if he got in, and he really got in! so yes, i supposed some of us (a lot) at MS will be going genting. i may, sadly, have to give it a miss because it's shirley's ROM. i can't miss that for the world! fret not, i'll still be there in spirit to give u moral support ah!! eee...spirit...not a good time to use this word. is 7th month over yet??

haha...so xuan, joyce, evelyn and the rest of the 8 (minus me)...GOOD LUCK! wahaha...i see how u all gonna lug ur luggage to genting! wahahaha...must start planning liao hor. next meeting, when? heee...

anything else i wanna say?

hmm...-think-

nope, dat's it i think.