Friday, August 18, 2006

2am thoughts...

aiyoh...

i know...i should be sleeping already. there's work tomorrow...then there's a performance at night, albeit a very short one. i look like a wreck...

it's just that i haven't had the easiest time in the past few months. especially since the single. i don't know if it's being paranoid or being hard on myself. it's just that i tell myself i'll do the best i can, which i really try to. somehow, i never think that's enough. i mean, i've been bitched about before. it's nothing really. people just like to bitch about things. so do i. so i thought i can take anything...like ANYTHING!

i guess it's different when i'm being judged inaccurately. someone tells you this...and some others feel something else. so i become really skeptical. how do i know who is speaking from their heart? maybe they say something but mean something else?

bah...it's so silly to think like that. the reason why i'm lamenting now is coz i THOT i am quite thickskinned...and i can take any kind of bulls***. (Keeping a PG rating here...oops...said "bitch" already) but i guess i can still feel sucky when people say mean things and go ALL out to show it.

nah...but dat's not the point of this whole thing.

the whole point is i really don't like being accused of doing things i didn't do. and frankly, i want to say it to the whole world, prove my point and do things my way. BUT that's not the way the world works.

SOOOO...i'll just shut up, nod my head, and just get on with life.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

:) way to go babe! we shouldnt care what other people think, esp people who bitch about us! not doing enough???? not doing the right thing??? Who are they?? And have they themselves do anyting yet? HA! Jia you girl, no matter what you do or decide to move to I will support you all the way. MUACKS