not that great...

today wasn't a great day, and the funny thing was, it had nothing to do with it being monday, nor was it the gloomy weather.

how's that for predictability...even the weather can sense my discomfort.

my guess is that i'm missing the dear one, plus i'm MS-ing (yeah, removed the P and u know what i meant?). he's in faraway london, which is actually a gloomy place, while i'm in half-gloomy-half-sunny singapore.

how's that for drama too?

ANYWAY...it doesn't help that i've been watching 花样少年少女.

i'm about 4/5 through, with 3 episodes to go, but i decided to stop before the evil drama gets a hold over me. yeah, everyone knows what taiwanese/korean/japanese (idol) dramas do to us. so i have been pretty strong-willed to stop. (i'm so close to bring my laptop around so i can watch it while i travel!)

before i digress, truth be told, such taiwanese drama, particularly the ones that were taken from manga, seems to always bring me into a depressive mood. it's like art imitating life and life imitating art all at the same time. i always get so much emotions out of them, and i get all retrospective and moody and depressing and a whole rollercoaster of emotions.

it's as if watching the show fills up a certain emptiness, but simultaneously increases that emptiness.

what an irony!

what an evil plot!!!

just feel like quoting phrases out of the show to illustrate your life, isn't that so?

feel the heartaches that the protagonist feels, laugh and cry along as if that were just you.

and before you go to bed at night, it makes you ponder of "what if", "what could be", and "if only".

then maybe you'll dream about it, maybe you won't. or maybe it'll just tire you out that you knock out, and wake up to find that another day has gone by and another day comes forth that you have to trudge through.

and another day...

and another day...

...

so what makes you snap out of it?

when he/she give u a reason to smile again...





(pls make me smile...)