oh shiat...

yah yah...i know i said i'll post up the pix for taiwan.

haven't had the time/chance to upload it to my comp even.

i've been rather occupied lately.

just woke up from a moment of folly.

and wish i hadn't been so hiong about it. then things wouldn't be soooo...complicated.

well, it's not dat complicated now.

just slightly...and a LOT of awkwardness.

which sucks.

big time.

must.put.that.away.for.good.

oh god...what did i do???

Taipei and back!

Haha...

I'm so behind by my posts. Was sooo busy before I went Taipei that I didn't really have the luxury of time to post. Literally rushed through my work, packed, left!

So yes, i went Taipei with xuan, shan, evelyn, joyce, xieshun and shaun. We left on the 9th and returned just yesterday night...the 14th. 6 days of fun, laughter and LOADS of shopping. let's just say...1 month of my bonus is effectively gone.

Pictures coming up soon...as soon as xuan collates all of them. we gave her all our memory cards so she could collate it and do up the video. yes...we have a video. i bet it's gonna be damn funny!

biggest buy of the trip: My 1st Gucci bag.

*clank clank...heartpain...*

But ok la...it was on sale ma...heeheehee...

Wait up for my next post with the pics...soon...i hope?

blardy *beep beep*

don't worry, the censored words are not censored for it's vulgarity or uncouthness. it's more...sensitive matter that i can't discuss about.

but these *beep beep* has caused me an entire week of unrest and ruined more plans. effectively, it ruined my tuesday, and wednesday, and thursday, friday...and saturday.

fark.

anyway, there are still a few good things despite the *beep beep*.

1. i bought 2 new CDs, thanks to my sis's CD rama voucher which she can't claim coz she had no time (and i suspect, no money too, and she leeches on me anyway). it's fish leong's and tanya's latest albums. only started on fish's one. no time la.

2. currently listening to the alanis morissette "the collection" album, which is a collection of her favourite hits. haha...very amazed at how poignant some of the songs are in relation to my life now. damn amazed. was actually contemplating if i should get it, but someone got it for me...so....yeap...i'm glad i have it.

3. watched shirley's dance show at the esplanade theatre studio. it was wonderful! i enjoyed it quite a bit. it's called "tiger burning" and there were little kids invovled. the costumes were soooo cute, just like the kids la. omg! so proud of u darling. u were wonderful and yes, the costumes were reeeally cute!! great job dear!

and last but not least...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYU!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN!!

happy birthday to u~
happy birthday to u~
happy birthday to joyce/shiyu/karen~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUU!!!

haha...all 3 on the same day. wat a coincidence!

*hugz & kisses*

This could be my all-time fav song.

听你 听我 张惠妹

你沉沉地睡著,
我静静看著你的容貌.
听你的呼吸,
听你的心跳,
忽然很想告诉你,
谢谢你过去带给我的美好.

人生挫折不少,
你的声音给我很多依靠.
听你谈未来,
听你大声笑,
忽然很想唤醒你,
现在就陪我去山上绕绕.

你是我的宝,
我一直为你感动骄傲.
即使梦想再累再煎熬,
你仍然紧紧抓牢.
真心的执著,
绝不放掉.
你是我的宝,
我一直为你感动骄傲.
外面的世界再多纷扰,
你依旧把单纯拥抱.
生命的旋律,愈唱愈高.

今晚,听我轻轻唱,
我想给你一份爱的力量.
听我为你祈祷,
听我说说话.
我已经打开窗,
准备和你迎接每天的太阳.

Going round and round.

We are prompted with the same issues, same questions and same dilemmas everyday.

Conscience - have we lived the day and ended the day with a clear conscience?
Morals - have we done what is morally right?
Emotions - have we let our emotions flow freely?
Values - have we done all we can to uphold the values that we hold true to our heart?
Honesty - have we been honest with ourselves and honest to others?

Actually, there is nothing to prove. There is nothing to explain.

We all lead a life trying to be as ideal as the world sees it. Yet, we face the same issues and dilemmas as everyone else. There is no perfect solution. We just do the best we can.

And sometimes the best may not be sufficient. Sometimes the best just...doesn't cut it.

But that's what makes us human, isn't it?

We are strong. We are weak. And we are everything in between.

At the end of the day, we can only look back and lament in retrospect of what we could have done better, what we shouldn't have done, etc.

But is lamenting enough?

Or is lamenting even going to help you lead the next day with greater prospect?

Think again.

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I love Brothers & Sisters.

dispelling the rumours.

i am NOT partying too much.

in fact, i don't party much.

i only went chilling once on friday at timbre2 and once more yesterday at wala. that is all!

it's not about the alcohol...well, maybe a bit, but what i actually like is listening to 'live' music, just chilling, watch the world go by, people-watch...relak one corner. you know, basically having a good time without actually having to move much.

i didn't use to have this kinda time nor ability to do such stuff. there were...many issues involved. now that i can afford to do it, i'm just going all out and enjoying life. it's so much better than being stuck at home on a saturday night and chatting with 1 person on MSN and randomly surfing facebook and watching tv shows that are lame/repeated/boring...errr...yah.

anyway...

i'm lonely la!!

so of course the basic instinct is to look for company and NOT feel lonely, right? coz misery loves company. u get all the miserable people together and then, maybe you don't feel as miserable. or u dun remember ur misery.

no wait...that would be the alchie talking.

haha...no la...i'm not on the road to self-destruction...yet.

just don't read too much into it.

note to self: don't read too much into it.

it's not working

i went to my happy place today.

all for a grand total of 30mins.

but it's not working.

oh....i don't give a fark...really.

damn the headaches!

wah!!! i can't take it anymore!!!

i don't understand how i can get these headaches and they just WON'T GO AWAY!

it's highly probably that it's due to oversleeping. i dunno why. i can't get used to sleeping more than 10 hours now. anything more than that and i get this huge splitting headache.

so much for taking the day off yesterday huh? now i'm down to 1.5 days only. damn...

okok, just 1 funny incident to report though.

i was asking around for panadol in my office. my colleague was helping me ask la. so he went ard asking, and another of my female colleague asked him if i went drinking?!?!? i'm like...WHAT??? that's my reputation, ladies and gentlemen. i've been relegated to being an alcohol junkie.

but i wasn't!!!

i'm just honest-to-goodness having a headache. a harmless, non-alcohol inducing headache.

although i did want to get a drink yesterday. but my partner-in-crime wasn't available. *pout*

i am SURE alcohol could have reduced the headache...or won't even cause me any.

darling!!! i wan my drink and smoked salmon puhleeease!!! -blink blink-

Lions for Lambs. Cramps for Sleep.

i watched Lions for Lambs yesterday.

I didn't know it was directed by Robert Redford himself. But I'm not surprised. Generally, i think it was a good movie (albeit somewhat sarcastic and a bit of a propaganda, perhaps?). Now I know why it's called Lion for Lambs. I think the title makes a point. A good point at that.

Anyway, Meryl Streep was as usual, BRILLIANT. So was Tom Cruise. And Robert Redford. What can I say? A solid cast and a solid movie and a solid title.

Oh...Stardust was good too...in a different way altogether.

I can't decide which I like better. I think they're just not the same. I've heard mixed reviews for Beowulf...so maybe I'll check that out myself...soon enough.

Anyway...I had a bad night.

Cause very disturbed sleep.

Cramps that never-ended, coupled with my sis and mum having a shouting match in the middle of no-farking-where. Ok, I just wanted to use that term...it was actually in the middle of the night, amidst my disturbed sleep. I was simply too "weak" to shout back at them to cap it. So I just let them have a go at each other until they got tired.

Which accounts for my exhausion and lack of enthusiasm today.



ok...the more i think of the blackberry, the more i wanna get it now. like...NOW. -patience is a virture-

i wan a blackberry.

i figured since i can't use camera phones, i will REFUSE to just settle for any old lousy like pok phone.



hence, i've decided to go all the way out...and get a blackberry.



to be precise...a blackberry 8820.

yup. i should NEVER settle for less. wahahahahaaaaaa...

wait...

i don't know how much it costs.

haiyah...

suan liao la...

AFTER the taiwan trip...then i'll GET MY HANDS ON IT! hiak hiak hiak.

suddenly many many things coming up in december. i feel so busy again.

xmas shopping...writing xmas cards...perhaps, even a xmas party??? hee hee hee...

ahh~~~ i SO want my blackberry now.